Attention Juniors!!

Something GREAT is coming our way in UTP!! But.. But.. What's that?

I guess i will just have to let the picture do the talking!!




Plz do join us!! I mean.. We gotta have fun sometimes too right??


Anywez.. Not long ago we have this Chinese gathering for the juniors! The nite was great and all.. Except.. They didn't have time 2 show the montage Shawn and i made!! Due 2 some 'technical difficulties' of course!! But, no matter.. Now everyone can view it through my blog!! You can watch it in Youtube also! Very sorry to those using wired connection.. Youtube is blocked so u would not be able 2 view it.. However, u can watch it thru wireless connection.. Enjoy!!

I will remember you..

“When im better, I will definitely bring u out 2 eat!” I still remember clearly. She said those words while lying down on the hospital bed.
“Hows your studies there?” she was alwez concern about my studies..


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“You must visit ur grandma while ur here ok!” thats my mum.. alwez teaching me to be respectful and to live my life with good values..
Sometimes I was reluctant though.. Often lazy, but I do love her so much.. So I battle whatever
reasons my body would come up wif and go spend time wif her..


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“Look, ur grandma.. Her kidney is failing..” I heard from my mum before the visit..
She had already needed regular blood infusion before this n she had dragged herself to the hospital countless times..
But this visit.. Something was different..
She was lying on a bed that didn’t seem too comfortable.. That bag of blood hanging high wif a protruding tube that made its way to her hand.. Kak Nur standing close getting ready to feed her wif the porridge that we brought.. It was hours past dinner time..
She carved a smile.. I know deep inside.. She was glad to see the whole family visiting her..

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“You know what is worse than death?” a wise uncle from church once asked me..
“What on earth can ever be worse than death itself?” I remember thinking to myself..
“ Dying.. Dying is worse than death.. To see yourself grow old, ur organs fail u, ur body becomes too weak and u can do nothing but wait until ur time is up..”

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Plz pray for my grandma! – I msged a few ppl n told them about my worries.. Im worried that she might.. She might..

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“Ah ma, what do you want? Let me get it for you!” I scooped some mixed vegetables wif yam into her plate..
She was smiling again.. She was happy again! We had dinner together.. Mum, Joan, Guin, me.. And her..
I know she enjoyed that dinner although mum and I agreed that the food wasn’t too good..
Haha ....


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“Now I pass the time to her family for any eulogies or testimonies..”

I'm up! I went to the front.. Unfolded my script, n spoke..


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I watched as they lowered her into the earth.. Every single memory that I have wif her juz flashes through my mind.. And I know its a chapter of my life that had finally come to an end..
No one saw me shed a tear throughout the whole thing..

“Its actually a good thing she left early..” ppl told me.. They said her kidney totally failed and if she were to live any longer on life support.. She would suffer every moment of it..
But no! It wasn’t because of the thought that she died a less painful death that void my tears..
What ppl dunno is that I shed more than physical tears.. I shed tears of regret that I wasn’t alwez there for her when it came near to the end.. I shed tears of sorrow and grief that I would not be able to see her for a long time.. I shed tears of shattered memories knowing that every time I try to put them back together, it hurts my heart remembering her..
Finally, I shed tears of joy.. That she no longer needs to suffer.. She no longer needs to face the toils and trails of the world.. That she is finally is with the Lord.. And wif those she loved.. Those who had gone before her and had waited in the clouds..

Grandma.. Until we meet again..

(Grandma departed 07.07.07)

Visit Malaysia 2007!!

Thats right!! What the poster say!! I took up the call so in conjunction to 'Visit Malaysia 07', i visited Penang!!

Went to the War Museum n had a hell of a time!
Die u Japanese scums!! I mean.. Its not like i hate u ppl or anythin.. I mean.. I love the anime n Ju-on thing u ppl do.. What u ppl do are all good.. I juz had to say something catchy since i had those babies in my hand!

Seventies Ghost Rider!! He did not pay his tickets.. They juz had to take his bike..


N then i visited temples.. Like this new one in Butterworth.. Check out the handy work!!

The signs can be in gold and confusing but i am damn sure it says 'No Entry' somewhere!!
Thai Temple - The Sleeping Buddha!!


Ahh!! Our twin tower is Thai?? Ahem.. Oops.. Sorry.. Thats juz one very cool, wooden model of our famous Twin Tower in KL made by a fren from UTP!

Next..
The theme here is easy.. Just blend in!!


Humoongooussss!!
Largemongous!!

Then.. Fort Cornwallis!!
Ok.. Aim.. Aim.. N shoot!!


Well.. Cummon.. U gotta have a souvenir after all that visiting rite!! I wonder if it can fit in the car?
Youth Park, Penang

Ok.. 2 end this post.. I want to dedicate it to.. to..
Those delicious cakes!! Haha!

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After all that promotion on Penang.. Don't any1 think that i should get paid or sth??!?

Memories Of Foundation Semester 1

Like many of you know.. Now im studying in UTP.. For those who do not know what UTP is.. Its University Technology Petronas. For those who do not know where it is.. Its near Tronoh. For those who do not know where Tronoh is.. Its about 25-35 minutes drive from Ipoh. For those who do not know where that is.. Its in Perak and for those who do not know where Perak is.. Umm.. Ur totally hopeless..

First, for some insights of my Uni..


And now.. For a bird's eye view of the whole new phase of our uni..Haha! ( No shoe was harmed during the construction of this University )

Ok! First things first! I have 2 warn u all! My Uni aint all that perfect! Dun get fooled by the word 'Petronas' since every1 has a wrong impression that Petronas being a rich company will spend millions on their Uni.. Well, ok.. Let me explain..

Warning! This is the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth!!
Ok! Well.. At least the University has the courtesy of compensating the guy! I mean.. An expired Cincau?!?! Dont they know anything bout human rights??

Anywez.. Moving on.. I guess u all are anxious of knowing who i met there!
All my frens!! This pic is taken during 1 of the moral sessions during the orientation week!

Now.. In my Uni.. Its not all studies ok! We do have fun sometimes!! U noe.. Visiting castles n stuff.. Kellie's Castle!

N sumtimes.. We do have fun playing musical instruments!

The 4 tenors! Ring any bell? Fine.. Its not all tenors in the pic but.. Imagine la!

Ok ok! Now 2 get serious! This next picture is about a man... a fire... and a mission!! Without him.. God noes how many ppl would have died!
Cummon! Lets give the guy a clap! Thats Javier putting out the fire!

N u think fire is our only problem! Its the least of our problems as our University is infested wif insects!! So.. We devised an ingenious way 2 immobilize them! But i gotta warn u.. It aint pretty.. 1st i wanna say sorry 2 my Buddhist frens.. I guess sometimes.. Sacrifices must be made 4 the Greater Good!!
Cruel.. I noe.. Very cruel..

Anywez.. Moving on.. We had our final examinations n of coz.. What can be more important than those last minute revisions outside the exam hall! Really!
N guess what! Right after the exams is my... my.. Birthday!! Woohoo!! N there is no better way to celebrate it than with.. with.. with..Eggs and Flour!!

Ok.. Its seems like we are nearing the end of this post so i will let u in on a secret but watever u do.. Do go around telling every1 about this.. I.. I.. I actually found myself a pet! N im keeping it! Although, i could have sworn i saw a "No Pets" sign outside of my Uni!! So here.. Have a look at my new pet!!Aint it cute?

So.. I guess thats all.. I hope this post has been enlightening!=)
(P/s Its an exotic Malaysian dish. Very rare i must add, called the 'Nasi Ayam Pataya'. - Pronouced wif a Malaysian slang (Pe-ta-ye). Legend has it that whoever pronounces it correctly n eat it... will have eternal life!!)

A Dream..

Time passes oh 2 fast.. And to think that my last post was more than a year ago.. I survived my SPM years and managed to squeeze a 9a1s 1a2 out from my effort.. Im not all that happy but then again.. I will accept it and be thankful to God about it..

I had a dream.. And in this dream, i was short listed for the Petronas Educamp in SMK Mara, Kuching.. After attending it and going thru the whole interview process.. I was chosen eventually as a Petronas scholar.. After that, i was sent to University Technology Petronas (UTP), Perak to study Information Communication Technology. It all sounded 2 good. Arriving there, i stayed in an old hostel where insects were constantly bugging me and it is also located very distant from my classes.. Walkin there everyday had left me longing for a car.. I met two very good frens.. They are of course, my coursemates.. Cheah Hui and Wei Han.. One very cute lil girl, and the other a tall, handsome and cheerful guy.. My life was very static in the uni.. I remember how i use to dream of living a dynamic life!

"Uni life is when u get to have all the fun! U dun have 2 worry bout waking up early in the mornin for school! U get to do whatever u want! Dun ever need to wear ur silly uniform or study so many subjects! Do not need to attend so many tuitions anymore!" i use to tell my sisters..

But now, its all over.. I can nvr hear my mum's scream again, calling me to wake up.. Or my dad's frustrated voice, askin me to keep to my books.. My annoyin sisters pestering me everytime i have sth important to do or my parents forcing me to do house chores..
I was alwez hoping and praying for sth more.. Wishin tht i could juz run away from that kind of life...

But why??! Why do i miss it so much? Why do i wish now that i can live that life again! I have left to many things undone..

Now, in utp, everything has changed.. I attend Hope Of God church n we have services in Tronoh and Ipoh alternatively. Eating the same kind of food everyday had left me missing my parents' cooking altho i nvr appreciate it back then.. I love them, my family.. And now i wonder why am i growing up so fast!

I guess, there is no turnin back in life.. We cannot possible change the pass.. We can juz live the present and pray for the future that it might contain joy and peace..

My life here aint all bad.. At least it is such a wonderful experience!! N.. Something really changed my life altogether! There is only room for improvement in my life here.. N i will be hoping for the best..

I woke up from that dream.. Realizing that i was actually dreaming that everything was a dream.. But for what i thought was a dream was actually reality..

My Skool Holz '05!

The following is written on the 2nd of Jan 2006.

I guess first off, i need to say really sorie to... My blog.. Reason? My long absence!! Ah.. For the whole holiday ive been seriously bz.. I guess there izin any room for blogging.. But thats all over.. Yup.. The holidays that we consider long had finally come to an end.. I guess before i adjust my mind back to the school life, i should at least jot down my wonderful memories of this hols...

Well, my holidays started juz like any other.. Except i didnt noe what it had in store for me.. The hols started n i was extremely free.. Sleeping 10-12 hours a day!! Haha!! I guess it was sleep eat play sleep eat play n sleep somemore.. Over n over again.. Well, thats the first phase of my holz.. Nth much to talk about...

Then i went to KL for the Planetshakers Conference!! Wow, it was an event of a lifetime!! Thousands of youth attended the conference.. It was held at Sunway Piramid n my frens n i stayed at Sunway Inn.. Very near the place.. We voluntered as Crew.. We became ushers! It was great fun n we had a memorable experience!! The night sermons were great! I could see many youths giving their lifes to God n lifting their hands in total surrender... I still remember counting the offering money.. WOW! I had never seen such a large pile of cash!! Each nite's offering totaled up to RM20k!! Met great frens there 2.. Will never forget that time..

After that.. I went to Alor Setar, Kedah with my mum n sum others.. We went there for this seminar.. The SuperKids Enrichment Week.. Well, i wasnt all excited bout this one.. I guess its just coz.. I tot it was a seminar only adults attend.. It lasted for a week.. Juz imagine how bored i will get!! Aiyo.. Surely got lots n lots of boring talks one.. Sigh~
But... I was wrong!!!
When i arrived at the place, i saw youths!! Halelujah!! N lots of them too.. I went in to the hall as blur as every1.. We were welcomed by Pastor Clarine n i was shock to hear that over 70 churches were represented there.. Some from Thailand, Indonesia, Singapure, etc etc etc... Wow!! I actually had a great week there.. I didnt expect it all.. The kids were great n amazing.. Doing presentation n dances n doing message sharing n all!!
Hold on.. Hold on.. I think i should first explain what SuperKids is for the sake of the "blur" ones..
Its a children church n the seminar is to teach helpers of children churches to run their children churches better!! Clear enuf??
So, as i was sayin, we learnt a lot there, n we were anointed by Pastor Clarine with oil on the last nite also.. My very first experience.. I have no idea ppl still practice that.. Haha! When the week ended, my heart was too heavy to leave.. I felt like the week juz zoomed pass me!!

So, my mum n i left Kedah n we met up with the rest of my family in KL.. We stayed there for a couple of days juz shopping n going places.. We had a great time since we miss each other n all.. We talked n talked, since each of us had our own story to tell.. Haha!!

After KL.. We went back to Kch.. N no.. Im still not that free yet.. My mum, sis n me had to get ready for Kids Games!! Its a big event with 150+ kids signin up for a three day activity including bible studies n games!! I practically spent everyday in church after that!! Preparin for Kids Games n also practicin for Christmas Dinner.. Guess whats our presentation?? Its Hip-Hop dance!! I remember once i injured my toe while doing break dance, blood was gushing out!! N i almost fell into a coma!!! Ahem.. sorry, may have exaggerated it a lil.. Anyway, my toe was bleeding badly n my toe nail was partly broken!! Nevertheless, we had fun!! Thats all that matters!!

Anyway, the Kids Games involves a lot of preparation!! We were practically in church everyday getting ready for the event.. Most of the youth were bz preparing the props and practicin their skits.. As for me n a few others.. We were preparin the games!! Equipment, rules, etc... Being in charge of the games.. i had extra responsiblilities n it wasnt easy mind u.. I guess they werent jokin when they said "With great power, comes great responsibilities!" Haha.. Nevertheless.. When the time came.. We were all prepared.. The youth volunteers include youths from other churches like St Faith and St Thomas Cathederal.. 10 youths from Brunei also helped us out and since Kids Games was first introduced to us by Bruneians, they had more experience in a way.. We got really close to them n find that they are really friendly ppl!! Not shy shy one like typical Malaysians.. Haha.. The event turned out to be such a huge success!! Praise the Lord!! The kids were having fun, the youths were having fun and the adult helpers looked like they were having fun.. Haha.. So.. i guess that makes everyone.. During Kids Games, some of the youths and children even fell sick but thank God its nth too serious.. Every1 survived!! Some barely but overall, most were fine, n some.. like me.. are more than fine!! Haha.. Its amazing what we can achieve through teamwork and our trust in God!! God had indeed blessed me, my family n ppl around me so abundantly that this holz had been so "unreal"!!

Written on the 2nd of Jan 2006.

Love Story...

Well.. Since im free n bored.. Let me tell u a story... Juz a story i made up..

Lying down on his bed.. He gave a sigh n closed his eyes.. He recalled his life.. Times he embarrassed himself n times he regret not doing anything... His whole life would have been nothing, no meaning, no worth... if it weren't for her.. Since the very first time he saw her, he had this feeling.. Not an ordinary one but something special... Something Strong!! It was as though an angel.. Yes! An angel from Heaven! Here On earth!! But how?? That question rings in his mind all the time.. How can a girl like that ever like a guy like him?!? His love is truly deep.. Undeniably unconditional!! Well.. At least thats wat he thinks...
He slowly opens his eyes.. The moon was full that nite.. Its usual radiance dazzled its audience.. Somehow.. The moon gave him a relaxing feeling.. At least he can take his mind off her.. The feeling is really tiring him... He can't hold it in any longer.. Loving some1 n not being loved back.. That's painful.. But loving some1 n not being able to tell that person.. It's worst! But holdin it in was his only choice.. What can he do?? They had a steady friendship.. He did not want to ruin it.. It started not long ago... With all the courage he can gather, with all the bravery he can muster and with a short prayer.. He stepped forward n spoke to Her.. Judging by his character.. It must be his life's biggest achievement!! The thought of even expressing his feelings..
"Your nuts!! What would she say??! She would never come anywhere near me after that!!" He scolded himself.. Yes.. Love makes us do crazy things..
Not long after that.. There was a camp.. For Christian students.. He, of course, joined this camp.. Expecting it to be juz another evangelical, fun n games camp.. He joined it out of boredom actually.. He wasn't much of a Christian.. Christianity is his parents' religion.. That's wad he always say.. He went there with not much of a mood, not expecting anything.. But... Yes! Its her.. She enrolled for the same camp!! Was it God's plan?? Of course, that question never entered his mind! He was more concern on how to draw her attention..
He was looking at her when he saw her group of frens.. Among them were the 'Tangs'.. They are twins.. Probably the most good looking guys u can find anywhere!! She was chatting happily with them.. Suddenly, the feeling of jealousy come upon him!!
"HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME LORD??" he screamed.. In his heart of course..
Funny huh? How ppl could forget to thank God when good things come n curse Him when bad arrives.. He then calmed himself.. He realize something.. Or rather believe in something... If u love some1, then u would be unselfish enough to give them whatever they want.. Besides.. Loving her is seeing her happy, although that happiness is not with him..
After all the checkin-in n paper work.. The students are given an hour rest before the activities begin.. He followed her to a basketball court.. She was still with the twins of course.. He was juz far behind.. He said to himself.. If he could juz look from afar, he would be satisfied.. But he knew he need not worry, the twins were there.. They are very involved in sports, thus strong n fit.. They started playin basketball only she wasnt playin... Watchin would be a more suitable word.. The court was old.. The nets was held up by a single pole on either ends.. A very old n basic court.. But that doesnt stop the twins from showin their skills.. Slam Dunk-ing, layin out n all... She finally decided to join the guys in the game.. He watched from a distance.. She was having so much fun.. He hair went wild n she was sweating all causing her thin make-up to mess up her face but thats ok.. Beauty was juz skin deep for him.. He felt happy then.. He knew that he should never enter Her life.. She is happy now!! He did not want to destroy that mood of hers.. He would juz disrupt her joy n pollute her image.. He knew what he had to do.. Or rather what he should not do..
He walked nearer.. Juz to have a close glimpse of her face before he leaves.. One of the twins was doing a dunk that moment.. And the pole snapped!! It broke n was falling down!! The twins were fast.. The ran to a save distance.. Everythin was ok... NOT!! She was rite under the fallin steel pole!! It seems like in her fright she could not move... He finally realize.. God Had a plan indeed!! He was there because God had plan all this.. He was there to save her.. He dived towards her n managed to push her away.. She was thrown to the side n the top part of the pole which is made up of the net and board slammed him to the ground.. Blood began flowin out of his body.. N he can feel it.. He is still conscious n he can see red liquid gushing out... But somehow.. There was no pain.. He couldnt feel any pain!!
She came to him.. Tears appeared from her eyes n rolled down her cheek..
"Plz dont cry. U see... I had loved u ever since i saw u.. But i dare not say.. I wake up every mornin blamin myself for being such a coward for not being able to express how i feel.. Each day, i worry bout u, how harm may come upon u or worry that may trouble u.. I alwez wish i could be there.. To hold you, To protect you, To Cheer u up, To love you till eternity ends... Plz! Smile.. For me?? Its not everyday that i get to save an angel.." with that he lost consciousness..

What are her feelings for him? Did he die? What happen at the end? Well... I guess u will find out... In a post near you...
To be continued....

1a.m.

Besides writing this post at 1am... I also had an encounter with 1am!! Haha.. Confused?? 1am- 1 accord ministry!! Never heard of it? Its a christian worship ministry.. N they are cool!! Went for the worship workshop weekend (WWW) last weekend on the 20th of august n learnt a whole lot lot lot!!! It was so much fun!! I actually faced a dilemma whether to choose to join vocals or musicians workshop!! But in the end i join the vocalists!! N did not regret!! It was a whole new experience.. I did not expect to gain so much.. On the nite of the 21st was the 1am concert!! They were awesome! Had a wild nite and even bought their t-shirt.. Rm25!! Haha.. Pokai liao.. Hai.. But thats ok to me.. As long as i can support the team who are carrying out God's work!! Holidays are almost over n i had nth done?!?!!? Was so bz with kids games training... Wats Kids Games?!?! U might ask.. Well.. Its actually a youth mission outreach to childrens of Kch!! Its a big event involving maybe 150 children or more with the help of 4 other churches.. Hai~ Feel so lazy now as i have to get back to books n boring lessons in school... Hai~ Life's like that i guess.. It isnt alwez fun.. Well.. To all those having Public Examinations.. All the Best!! Pray Hard n Study Smart!!

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Omg!! Last updated 1 June 2005!! I guess ive been very bz.. in mid July... I went to Penang for this huge competition!! National Band Competiton!! As a member of St Joseph's Marching Show Band (Waa.. Shiok~) i had the oppurtunity to represent Sarawak!! Haha.. Bangga.. Ahemz~ Anywez.. We had high hopes.. We went in there with heads high, and full confidence that we can make it to at least top 3!! We preformed our very best n left the arena with a beautiful finale! Then we watch other team's performance n waited anxiously for the judges's decision... Our hearts were pumping.. I looked around n see the many nervous faces.. Some looked pale n others.. Worst.. The air grew cold n thin as our patience is stretched thin.. We cant waited any longer.. When suddenly.. The announcer spoke.. Guess what? We made it to the finals!! Along with 5 other bands.. Kl, Perak, Selangor, Terengganu, Pulau Pinang n us!! Wow.. The situation changed completely!! Everyone was jumpin for joy.. I was lost in excitement myself!! Finals was the next day.. We went back cheering n celebratin but we still kept our focus for the finals.. The next day.. Same thing again.. Same place, same formation.. We put in everythin we had in that performance! N again.. The moment repeats... But this time.. Itz even more tense, even more nervous, n even more anxious.. We couldnt wait for the results.. My heart was pumping so fast i felt like it was going to explode.. The seconds tick like hours.. Sweat covered each of our faces n some slept coz they cant take it.. =P N then.. The moment of truth!! We.. We.. We.. Did not manage to get top 3 placing!! Arghhhh!! Noooo!!! All our efforts was flushed down the toilet, went down the drain, knocked over by a speeding truck, slammed under an elephant, destroyed like Hiroshima.. Hai~ We only got 4th placing.. I guess we suck.. Maybe its juz not God's will.. The next day we had a whole day of shopping in Penang to forget our grief.. =P But it hardly work.. I can still c the disappointment in my frens' hearts.. Well.. i guess somethings are not meant to be...